Freaking out. Trying not to but it's hard when everything is so up in the air. Moving to Chicago in a month and haven't sold our house yet and have no idea where we are going to live. Of course because we are selling the house (and I'm sure because it is so clean all the time now too!) I'm sooo sad to leave it. There are lots of things we wanted to do but we've been here 4 years and finally finished the kitchen remodel just so we can sell. I can't believe I was able to let it go that long but working full time + all of the family stuff the past couple of years has been exhausting. Not having the money to do it the way I wanted definitely didn't get me motivated either.
I will miss my studio the most. It is a light-filled room with crappy old windows and beat up painted floors that don't seem to matter at all any more. The best thing about it is the gorgeous oak tree right outside the second story windows makes it feel like I am in a treehouse. The tree was a gift from our lovely neighbor Ruth to the original owner of our house 42 years ago. That little sappling is now at least 25 feet tall and my very favorite thing about our house. I love to lie on my back in the grass in the summer and look up the branches and leaves from below. Of course now I am wishing I would have taken the time to do that more often. Then there are the little creatures that come back every spring: a squirrel who loves to raid the hazelnut bush and leave the shells all over our patio, 2 black crows that are clearly a couple and break off the tiny new branches off of the oak tree in the spring to make their nest and then a bluebird who pulls worms out of the grass. Feels silly but they were little buddies when I was sewing and running my bridal business. Sigh. Have to keep trying focus on the positive. Chicago is amazing and we'll have lots of new adventures. Hopefully that will include a new home that is as great as the one we are leaving behind.
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